Happiest of Holidays to all readers!Christmas has become a sort of non-entity for me. I don't have family in town and I don't like to go to Minnesota for Christmas and freeze my ass off. My mom's side of the family has a big celebration - usually a couple weeks before Christmas because the actualy holiday, people are busy with their in-laws to get together. But, I go to these things and watch all these people and I can't relate to them, and I doubt they can relate to me. We make small talk, and I find out that their lives are the same, their kids are older, but not much changes. Not that much changes for me either and they can't relate to what little goes on in my life either. It's not a loss. I've grown apart from them because I lead a pretty different life 2,000 miles away and I'm not really interested in the things they're interested in, nor are they interested in me. The saving grace is that Mom came to visit for about 5 days. It was great having her here.
The book is largely stalled. I am desperate to keep writing, but my current strategies are not serving the story and a restructure is needed. I will continue to play with ideas and I'm confident I will find my way back, but it's frustrating to be stuck without a plan.
My 2 best friends and I have gone to Disneyland on Christmas Eve the past few ye
ars, but this year, one is on her honeymoon. The wedding was last weekend and I was a bridesmaid for the first time in my life (I always get asked to do the music, never to be in the wedding). That was a terrifying experience I don't really care to have again. I was filled with anxiety, surrounded by far too many size 2s. I'm sure I stuck out like an elephant. But, it was for Aileen, so I did my best not to let it get to me, as uncomfortable as it was, and it was worth it. Aileen had a beautiful wedding in spite of me and I'm certain that I was 50 times better behaved than one other particular member of the wedding party!
ars, but this year, one is on her honeymoon. The wedding was last weekend and I was a bridesmaid for the first time in my life (I always get asked to do the music, never to be in the wedding). That was a terrifying experience I don't really care to have again. I was filled with anxiety, surrounded by far too many size 2s. I'm sure I stuck out like an elephant. But, it was for Aileen, so I did my best not to let it get to me, as uncomfortable as it was, and it was worth it. Aileen had a beautiful wedding in spite of me and I'm certain that I was 50 times better behaved than one other particular member of the wedding party!
