Writing

I find it difficult to read sometimes when I write. I see how eloquently some writers are capable of expressing themselves and I find myself unable to approach that level of eloquence. I keep a journal when I read and I write down phrases and words I like and ones I'm not entirely sure the meaning of, and I look them up. Then I forget to use these words and borrow from these phrases when I'm writing until I go through the journal and see a word and go back and re-phrase my stuff. It's tedious but eventually it serves its purpose.

I have managed to crank out about 10 pages since I started writing again this weekend. There is a whole section of about 50 pages that needs to be scrapped and completely re-written. And the new stuff I'm coming up with is toward the end, so when I write the middle, this ending stuff is all going to change. It's not the best idea, but I'm stumped on the middle.

I was thinking about some people I know who claim to be writers or who want to be writers and never write a word. I just love to write, so I do it. Hopefully this time, I'll be able to contribute to my income with it. But I say why not write? I hear people say they can't get started, but I think you just sit down and write anything. Write random words and phrases and eventually they will take some shape. I suppose I shouldn't be giving advice to other writers. I'm not sure I even consider myself a writer - I'm just someone who likes to write. That feels different than being a writer. Does that make any sense?

I need a coke.