Can't Decide What I Want to Be When I Grow Up

My first ever blog post.
The gist of this blog is that I can't decide what to be when I grow up, so I dabble in lots of things. The problem is, I'm decent at a lot of things and (depending on the day), love to do them all equally.
Here's what I've been so far:
Professional cellist.
Music teacher of cello, voice, piano, violin, viola, bass, guitar and for a minute at the beginning of my teaching career, flute & sax.
Stringed instrument sales person.
Office manager.
Word processor.
Actress.
Singer.
Director & producer of theatre in Los Angeles. I know, not much to boast about, but most of the work I did where I had some creative control and was not just acting was quite good. I wrote/produced/starred in my own show in 2002 that was very good (got nominated for an award, but didn't win), and directed/produced a show in 2004 that was also very good and won the award the first show was only nominated for.
Amateur writer. The first book was about 10 years ago and wasn't something I ever tried to get published. This last book I wrote will be a large element of this blogging expedition. It's twice too long for any agent to take seriously for an unpublished writer (222,000 words) and I'm trying to decide what to do with it.

All of these endeavors have made me poor. I've filed bankruptcy once, am in debt again, and have never been able to live more than paycheck-to-paycheck, even in my most prosperous times. Thank god we now have democrats back in office. Now if I could just win the lottery...or get my book published.

At the moment, I make my full-time living teaching private music lessons to 35 different kids on 5 different instruments. It's fun, fulfilling and I'm very grateful that I'm able to do something I genuinely like and am good at, especially when I see my friends around me who aren't so fortunate.

I've never been married, have no kids, and haven't been on a date since 1996. In the process of life's trials and tribulations, I have discovered that I am not cut out for romantic relationships. My friends and family think that's insane, and keep trying to encourage me, but it's a waste of time. Love is a natural part of life for most people, but it's something I've accepted is not supposed to be a part of my life. In the meantime, I do have a huge crush on a certain very talented British actor who I will talk about later.

I think I'll leave my introduction here. Tomorrow, I'll talk about my book some more.